OK. I promise not to overdo the Juno-isms. They're just so totally boss.
Back to the blog.
I'm not sure why, but unleashing this blog was one of the scariest things I've ever done. When I hit the "go live" button yesterday, I felt physically sick.
I kept thinking, "Maybe this is a bad idea. Something is wrong. I shouldn't be this afraid."
Then I remembered one of the big lessons from last year. Part one of the lesson was something I heard Eve Ensler say. I was at Women, Power and Peace Conference at the Omega Institute. She was talking about her work on the Vagina Monologues, she paused for a second, then said, "Honestly, I am never afraid and I am always afraid." It was a huge moment for me. It was the right time and space for me to hear that it's OK to hold both of these at the same time. Uncomfortable, but OK.
Part two came a few months later, when I was in San Francisco and I met the fabulous Diane Conway. The back of her book reads, "She is a self-described 'do-over' queen and survivor, riddled with fears, who lives her dreams anyway." It's the "doing it anyway" part that really spoke to me. I think the subtitle of her book is as important as the title:
Fear is often helpful (like when it comes to large, poisonous snakes or Chuck E. Cheese). But, it can also keep me from "going live." Today, I'm going to live this little blog dream of mine, while I'm quakin' in my brown, suede flower clogs.
And, I really appreciate all of the supportive emails and comments. They mean a lot to me and they certainly calm the quake.